Day 4 - A new and different life

Today I have realised that my new life holds very little similarity to the life I lived before. Where before I lived by the clock, now, for me, time has become almost meaningless without a watch to wear or awareness of the passing hours. There is no rhyme or routine, other than starting the day with a morning cuppa, anything is possible from there. Gone are the days of rushing everywhere, without pausing to even think. I now have time to breathe. Plans are loose and free flowing, where I might drop what I’m doing to embrace a sparkling ray of sunshine or admire a bird dancing along a branch of an autumn coloured sea.

The transition hasn’t been easy. Last night I became antsy and upset because I hadn’t achieved all the goals I had set in the almost 3 days I’d been here! It’s a strangely freeing feeling not to have anything I have to do, and now that I’m here, I realise I’d been looking forward to it for quite a long time.

The roar of the logging trucks are the only real sounds of civilisation here. It’s funny, but it’s strangely reassuring for me. It is a big transition from busy, suburban street with close, noisy neighbours, almost constant sirens (near the hospital) and just the dull roar of humanity. The absolute quite at night still unnerves me a little, where a fluttering moth sounds like a dancing elephant in the silence.

The peace, the space, the time to call my own seems to expand each day, as the initial settling in and unpacking ceases. I’m open to what this new chapter in my life in this search for simplicity will bring and will enjoy this freedom, while it is mine.